2009
Month 2
July 23
Word Count: 339
//Try to write five pages today, five pages tomorrow to catch up.
July 22
Word Count: 250
I DID NOT WRITE FOR EIGHT DAYS!
July 14
Word Count: 210.
I DID NOT WRITE FOR THREE DAYS!
dead. man. dead.
I know now what it means to be faithful to a story. Yes, perhaps this will take time. I hope I retain my voice and style.
I hope I keep discovering new loves like Calvino.
July 10
Word Count: 596
I relieved myself. It feels good. Calvino. Stay with me for a while.
July 9
11:00 pm -- Word Count: 476
Dont forget to breathe.
10:00 pm -- Word Count : 399.
Elated. Unconstipated. C has a ruptured vein in the eye cos of constipation. I would have had a rupture in my CEREBRUM if thoughts wouldn't have flowed. FUCKING RUPTRUED CEREBRUM. Idiot sia.
Breathe. Breathe. Breathe. Calvino. FUCKING save me. save my story.
July 8
Word Count: 0
Heart broken. Cannot survive on artificially supplemented oxygen. Must learn how to breathe.
Woke up dreaming I am Jew. A male Jew. Conversing with my supposed sister.
Fanny and Alexander. Henry Miller.
July 7
Countable pages: 21
(This reminds me of Jan 2009 status. Oh Glorious beginnings and fizzling middles! :))
Updated word count: 261
Word Count: 215
Bday tomorrwo.
Didnt write a word for two days. Watched Fanny and Alexander. Play it again Sam.
July 6
Word Count 0
It's a chilly morning and I am fussing over a bad night. I need to read and write. Fck off other things. Dont clutter my head.
July 5
Sunday. Word Count 0
July 4
Word Count: 291
My Lenovo S10 is just fantastic. Didn't advance much today. But wrote. Important.
I need to up my target to 500. If I survive July, will do that in August.
July 3
Updated Word Count: 590
Word Count: 555
I am on the baap of Red Bull for Writing: ITALO CALVINO (If on a winter's night a traveller).
He just waved a wand and every other author lay mutilated at is feet.
Also I have The Little Prince.
Let me say again: The only oxygen is good words.
July 2
Word Count: 450
Word of the day: lightness
Of course did not write yesterday. But I discovered Calvino. I am holding on to his chads now. I will get through with Miller, but Calvino ..ooof.
Month 1
June 30: Day 33
Word Count: 267
Yesterday: 196
OK. This is the end of one cycle and the experiment is a semi-success.
I have managed 13 pages in over a month. And could have been more had I not changed to first person. If I can manage 30 pages in the next month I can continue in August.
To write every single day is the only hope. If I survive July August September I will be able to continue further.
If I leave the rope anytime midway I will fall into that abyss. Let's see.
Day count 1 from tomorrow. Perhaps I will make a spreadsheet.
June 28: Day 31.
Word count: 253
Update: I managed 253 words today and I am proud. The only oxygen is good words. I have just mounted Henry Miller and he is helluva macho wordsmith.
Day 30 just went by. How much did I write in a month? Probably half of what I should have. May be 15 pages in total instead of 30. And having changed voice, my new count is only 8, though I am sure I can use some of the old stuff too.
Trudge on.
Restart count on July 1. Aim for 500 words a day. Yeah yeah...
June 26: Day 29
Word count: Exact 250.
Didnt write yesterday. Yeah I am writing every alternate day.
Word for the day: wrench. need to wrench out words which is not very pleasant.
may be this is going to die too. It will be hopeless if it does.
June 24: Day 27
didn't write yesterday. went to blue vector and had dinner with D and slept at B's.
Bad time management.
today word count: 226
SQUEEZED SQUEEZED SQUEEZED time. discipline. just a picking up of laptop and writing.
Enjoyed. have been enjoying more after switching to first voice. but 7 pages is still fucking tottering.
June 22: Day 26
Word Count: 308
Squeezed time
June 21: Day 25
Word Count: 271 but used the old Nityasumangali post.
lovely weather.
overbreakfasted. :)
June 20: Day 24
Word Count 416: Total word count about Five pages. Get to thirty. And restart count in July. And publish less on blog.
Restart. Sticking to first voice for now.
I need to pick the fcking thread man.
Day 17, 18, 19, 20,21,22,23
June 13,14,15,16,17,18,19
NO WORK
SEVEN DAYS LOST. I did keep thinking though. And lost faith quite a few times.
This days and dates are getting confusing.
I will start with one from July 1.
I did manage to write about 200 words each day.
Day 16: June 12
First person is seductive.
Word count: 295
Word count for new beginning: 703.
Planning to put stories only once a week on the blog.
Shdnt get addicted to the blog interface.
Day 14: June 10
I am switching to first person. An experiment. I am tired of making beginnings. But then, I feel alive. And this seems more honest. And beautiful.
11:40 am Word count: 317
Day 13: June 9
Word Count: 217 (two posts)
The Passion by Winterson
Day:12 June 8
Word count: 59
No work. Except for the memory post.
I am so madly in love with Winterson I could...
No work on Day 10 and Day 11. Weekend. Clubbing. Eagle Eye. Winterson says "Jules and Jim has more action than all Westerns put together." something like that. True.
Guilty of neglect of discipline. Can I make 150 words today?
Day 9: June 5-
1:09 pm word count: 203
1:32 pm: 257
Dreamt of the lines about the circles at night. Did not get up to write.
Winterson is inciting. For a writer, inciting is in-sighting.
What will I do without the library back home?
Best advice so far: Stop when you are still in the middle of an idea. That way you always have a place to start the next day. Works. Will record when it doesnt. Problem is some days the idea is so small you have to exhaust it then. Cant sit idle till the next day. :)
Day 8: June 4
target=500
Dropping sequential banter.
1:13 pm. Fickle fickle mind. Wrote sequentially. Bah!
total word count: 2349
targetted: 2000
Breathing. Breathing.
I want to create and Excel Sheet. No stop. Create after you survive a month. Your treat. :)
Day 7: June 3
today's count=50
(writing the next morning) derailed. But will keep up with the word count. and stop the diary.
Day 6: June2:
count = 219
Bad, Thoroughly depressing night after Raj food and Winterson's words. Bad. Got up at 2:00. Slept a little. Sore in the head.
Count before staring today's work: 1547
3:44 pm havent written a word. reading about someone's depression depresses me more.
Can manage 250 words but not in sequence. have stopped counting. linear narrative bores me as a writer.
June1: 11:28 am. Freezing in the library. Brain dead. Kept reading old words. Facebook. Reader. Stupid stuff. Now want to go to loo so have to pack all stuff. set up again. Excuses. I shdn't panic. I still have the rest of the day. Perhaps think of the scene ahead and only then commit anything to words.
3:23 pm: in THE ZONE. on a high. lesson: give yourself time. stick to the work. know that the deadline is for real. had dan-dan. had tea. perhaps it is the tea. experiment with with-lunch tea. no rice for lunch. stare at the screen. no mails is a good scenario.
May 31. 10-35 am. Admittedly did not write much yesterday. But must have done the 200. Yesterday: Baader-Meinhof Complex. Superb. Pearl, gold shopping for family friends. What fun!
Planned yesterday how to make up for the lost time and got up on time and started writing. Worked well. 250 is an easy target but on the weekend you need to think WHEN you will write. Fourth day. I am breathing for now. It takes me an hour to get into my words. And I need to keep my wordlist in front of me. More shopping today. ye!
Target: 1000
Done: 1280
10:15 pm update: wrote the blog post. Gatsby is inciting. Hits the marrow of the mental bone. Ohh those are good words. Need to record. But yes Gatsby -- need one explain what great writing is?
May29: I wrote the first sentence. May be I added about 90 words. New lappy. In the library. bragged about these to the btches. They are honking Kid Kid. I dare not say Book Book. I am still on Page 1. Internet a big big badass.
Update: 4:25 pm. Counted to 320 words for today. So second day into the challenge. Tired. Distracted. Cold in the library. Will pick up a book and return home only at 8:00. Zzzzz
May 28: Restart count. Count=0.
6:03 pm. At NUS. Megabites. Veggie Sandwich. Fries. Chat with Pratibha. Jayendra.
Word count stands at 670. Not bad leh. Ordinary dialogue. Just got on with what came to mind. Put away poetic narrative bleargh for later. Will go to buy my new Asus soon and hopefully won't have to bother Chets from tomorrow. Nityasumangali already borrowed by someone else. FUCK. If I stick to this routine for 15 more days, I will be on track. Slow down. Today is JUST DAY ONE. Stash away the adrenalin, stupid.
